The Circle of Life

Isn't it funny how certain events mark specific memories in our brains? Where were you when Ronald Reagon was shot? How about when the first space shuttle disaster happened in 1986. Do you remember exacty what was going on in your life when those events happened? I do remember what was happening to me on those days and I also remember what was going on on the second day of May five years ago. Interestingly enough, it was a birthday anniversary for two different nieces of mine. On Debbie's side of the family, it was Ashley. She is the oldest daughter of Brenda, Debbie's sister. On my side of the family, it was Sarah, the youngest daughter of my sister, Kathleen.

Five years ago today, I rode a bicycle to work. That is not very normal for me but I remember because of some other things that happened that day. Perhaps a half hour after I arrived my cell phone rang and I answered it as I am unaccustomed to doing. After all, it was from Debbie. How bad could it be? Well, it wasn't all that bad. I mean I had been expecting this particular bit of news. After all, my mother had been very sick for a number of weeks and each day I expected to hear that she had finally expired.

I remember entering my supervisor's office, sitting down and trying to tell him that I needed to go home. I remember saying that I thought I was completely prepared for that particular event but it was obvious that even though I thought I had prepared myself, I was not completedly ready for the finality of death when it actually occurred.

Oh my goodness. Here it is, five yrs later, and I am struggling to see through blurry vision so I can complete this post. What is going on? Hopefully, my difficulty in completing this post is normal and by tomorrow, I will be back calculating life events with the logical, non emotional evaluation with which I am accustomed.